Once a survivor.   Now a warrior.

I feel overwhelmed by disparate chores/time management issues. I have been ending the day with a yucky feeling at the end of the day that my head is full of loose ends, that I didn’t get anything accomplished. I am assigning emotions to non-emotional subjects due to stress/exhaustion. I am starting to resent certain obligations.…

The ER doctor and nurses were good to me. The brain surgeons were good to have after my brain injury. The ICU nurses were good. The rehabilitation center therapists were good. But, the doctors were terrible to me. What a nightmare! The rehabilitation center nurses were awful to me. They would barged in at night…

In October, 2008, about two months before my coma, I wrote this letter to my old friend.     I looked at your photos… you look so happy! Your eyes are on fire. It brought me back to the time you took me to dinner in Boston for my birthday and we spoke about me becoming…

My baby fingers grasp my fisher price animals. A New World monkey doesn’t use her thumbs.  Unlike humans and most Old World monkeys, their thumbs are not opposable. A human baby would eat from her fingers. The thumbs show up after she mastered eating with her fingers. New world monkeys Thumb orientation lies in line…

This memory poem is about how I stayed at CarePartners, a hospice center, when I suffered the consequences of the stroke.

Now, after my touring twenties, I’ve finally come to a place in my career that I feel happy. My job is flexible, technical, creative and fun. I love what I do. I make patterns and prototypes and I manage the sewing production for AlonTree- a company based out of Asheville NC. While Asheville is not…

My energy (Ki) flows down my motor system in my brain carried my nerves system into my shoulder, arm, wrist, hand and thumb & fingers’ muscles & ligaments. This happens to me over four years (& counting). I can see my energy like a waves pushing a little bit of tiny sands up onto a…

I thought that that the karmic laws were holier-than-thou attitude. I loathed the racist Church Ladies and the “sainted”‘politicians who would bad-mouth their opponents. And, I was holier-than-thou in terms of my religious, physically strength and intellectual prowess. I lay there in the hospital bed and my blood clot stripped myself of everything. And, I…

Baby steps are measured in months and years. Mademoiselle Violin decided she was going to pick up the violin and, what-the-heck, play it. What’s transcribed in her YouTube video is magical and shows hard work (conquers all!). I have been doing ecstatic dance for some time now.  Recently, a guy from my ecstatic dance came…

“We thought those brain circuits were dead. And we’ve learned that they’re not,” said Dr. Steinberg. I know for sure that you have been submerged about stem cells which have been injected into stroke survivors’s brain at Stanford University’s neurosurgery lab. “Their ability to move around has recovered visibly. That’s unprecedented,” said Steinberg. Unprecedented? First…

On December 8, 2008, I was unconscious.  I lay there in the ICU in a medical coma.  The brain surgeon was completely exhausted  He wept to my parents, “He had a fist-sized blood clot in his left hemisphere of his brain.  What we’re seeing is a catastrophic massive stroke”.   He was carefully pointing out that…

Stroke is the second most frequent cause of death after coronary artery disease, accounting for 6.4 million deaths across the world. One out of three people who have a stroke are under 65 years old. Babies. Teenagers. College kids. Singles. Moms and Dads of little ones. At any age stroke can occur. On December of…

This morning, I was flying to San Antonio (where my ex-wife & my lovely daughters dwell). The pilot came on to say that the reason we weren’t taking off was because the first-in-line plane hit a deer. Seriously. Why was the deer on the runaway? Do you know the “Far Side” by Gary Larson? And,…